August Ames, 23-year-old porn star who’d appeared in over 280 adult films and was nominated for the 2016, 2017, and 2018 AVN awards, was found dead yesterday in her California home, through asphyxia by hanging.
Ames committed suicide after battling depression for years.
She had recently received some Twitter backlash over controversial tweets about a co-star who had shot gay porn. It started when Ames tweeted what she believed to be an important warning to a fellow female porn star who would be replacing her in an Erotica X scene.
whichever (lady) performer is replacing me tomorrow for @EroticaXNews , you’re shooting with a guy who has shot gay porn, just to let cha know. BS is all I can say🤷🏽♀️ Do agents really not care about who they’re representing? #ladirect I do my homework for my body🤓✏️🔍
— August Ames (@AugustAmesxxx) December 3, 2017
Shortly after the tweet went up, Ames was hit with claims of being homophobic.
https://twitter.com/AlexisMonroexxx/status/937507448620957696
https://twitter.com/MJg0at23/status/937422940672491520
The pornstar shut down accusations of homophobia, defending her opinion over the tweet, “I am NOT homophobic. Most girls don’t shoot with guys who have shot gay porn, for safety,” she wrote, “That’s just how it is with me. I’m not putting my body at risk, I don’t know what they do in their private lives.”
NOT homophobic. Most girls don’t shoot with guys who have shot gay porn, for safety. That’s just how it is with me. I’m not putting my body at risk, i don’t know what they do in their private lives. https://t.co/MRKt2GrAU4
— August Ames (@AugustAmesxxx) December 3, 2017
I don’t have anything to apologize for! Apologizing for taking extra steps to ensue that my body stays safe? Fuck you guys attacking me when none of my intentions were malicious. I fucking love the gay community! What the fuck ever! I CHOOSE who I have inside my body. No hate. https://t.co/7dSbq27K2F
— August Ames (@AugustAmesxxx) December 4, 2017
The star was openly bisexual, starring in plenty movies with other women.
How am I homophobic if I myself am attracted to women? Not wanting to have sex with gay men is not homophobic; they don’t want to have sex with me either👋 so byeeeee
— August Ames (@AugustAmesxxx) December 3, 2017
Some people quickly came to her aid.
Honestly anyone who got butthurt over this was just trying to look cool in front of peers. MOST performers don't work with crossovers, it's not new, & it's not rude OR offensive to protect yourself & others NOR is it bad to choose who you want to fuck. Your body your choice🤘🏼
— 🍕🌮 Noelle Easton ONLYFANS (@NoelleEaston) December 4, 2017
I'm with you August. You're not homophobic. You're STDphobic.
— LSWG321 (@LSWG321) December 5, 2017
August hasn’t been a stranger to depression. In an Unfiltered Holly Randall podcast, the adult film star was very open about her sexually abusive past, the distant relationship she had with her father, and her constant struggle with depression.
“I get very depressed. I can’t get out of bed, I have to cancel my scenes for a week or two.”
Her mother was diagnosed with depression, bipolar disorder and multiple personality disorder later on in life. August, whose bubbly personality on and off the screen is equally infectious, had been diagnosed with the same disorders.
When she was unable to control her depressive tendencies, specifically when she hadn’t taken her medication, something as simple as getting out of bed became impossible.
“I was diagnosed as bipolar and depressive, and multiple personality disorder, so I take medication for that, too. It was so hard when I wasn’t on any medication, when I would just flip. It was crippling. I couldn’t get out of bed, everything had to be perfect around me, if there was a crumb on the floor, I would go apeshit. I would just throw myself in bed, I wouldn’t shower.”
The adult star’s death brings up the question of where we draw the line with who women choose to share their bodies with, especially with the recent #MeToo movement sweeping our nation.
It’s a very sad day for the adult film industry and Ames’ following.
Such a sad day in our industry!!! RIP baby girl August Ames you surely will be missed! Her presence lit up any room, that laugh was contagious you truly were and will always be a superstar. My heart goes out to her husband Kevin and her family❤️ pic.twitter.com/tLZdNNvxKg
— Nikki Delano (@NikkiDelano) December 7, 2017
Her husband, adult film producer Kevin Moore, has asked to be left alone at this time of his wife’s untimely death.
“She was the kindest person I ever knew and she meant the world to me. Please leave this as a private family matter in this difficult time.”
RIP August.